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Mar 13 2009

Intro

Published by blackdog at 9:36 pm under Struggle with Mediocrity Edit This

My life to date:

Hi there. This introduction should give you a fair understanding of my background and where i’m coming from, and hopefully help you to understand why i feel the way i do about others.

              My name is Chris. I grew up in a medium sized town with both my parents and one brother and one sister. I didn’t pay attention in school but managed to pass almost all of my subjects. Many of my friends have come and gone and now that I have moved town, I am in ontact with all of them less and less. I have always tried to treat people with respect, except for the the rare few that prove to me they dont deserve it. I Have always thought of myself as a generally nice person and with that in mind, hope that good things will come to me. I have always put alot of effort into any job that i have undertaken and managed to complete a carpentry apprenticeship at the age of twenty-one. At this time in my life, everything seemed to be falling into place. I was young, single and had a reasonable, steady income. It was at that time that i decided to move cities and head to the big smoke. Due to a family matter, this only lasted six months before i moved to my current location, where I have been for the last three years. Somewhere in the middle of all this I managed to find a lovely girlfriend and settle down, to an extent. Everything was great. We both found jobs very quickly, and together were trying to save for our first house. This filled us with the hope that in the nearish future, we would be reasonably well off. HA!! If only everything was that simple.

              Since then, Both my partner and myself have become much less optimistic about our town, our opportunities, and my career choice. A severe shortage of work in my industry, possibly due to economics so i’m told, has meant that I, aswell as many others, have been finding it more than tough over the last six months or so. It is very imasculating being supported by your girlfriend and having no way to help support the household. Believe me, this is not due to a lack of effort. this may sound a little sexist to some, but, and I’m sure my partner would agree, the man of the house should be able to support the household. We have had this discussion many a time and both agree to this scenario purely for the fact of the children and the downtime that would be associated with my partners future pregnancies.

              My partner and myself both notice the good fortune of others and I have to admit that we may be guilty of a little jealousy as of late. We see young couples, with children, able to purchase houses even though only one of them work. To add insult to injury, an apprentice that was working under me has already sold his first home and is looking to build his second. This is compounded by the fact that, at the moment, we cannot even afford small pleasures such as a bottle of wine or a meal at a cheap restaurant.

              I think it would be an understatemant to say that we are merely depressed. A severe lack of social life, accompanied with no affordable hobbies or projects such as the house, has begun to lead or relationship down a dark path of arguements and distance. It is a very testing time in both our lives and we try to hold onto the slim belief that one day we will be able to look back on this and say “Hmmmm, that was tough, but i’m glad we pushed through it.” as opposed to “Yep, that’s where it all went down hill.” Only time will tell.

              Over the next year or so in this blog, i will be posting all of our financial, mental and personl progress or deterioration as it happens, along with any personal feelings and gripes at the world and so called friends. Come back daily to read my latest posts. Thanx for your time.

Chris

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